Can't Compete

I've been wondering, searching all in my head. Looking for the reasons that you see of me. I'm unable to find the sources for the reasons you seem to believe that I can't be the one you need. The more posts you post, the more I crumble inside. The obsession you have for him are the ones I wish you had for me, but I know I'll never be good enough for you. When I stand in front of you, I see you look over my shoulders at him. I appear just transparent for you to see right through me at him. I just cannot compete with him for you as I'll just be the losing man. Maybe it's just in vain, so I'll try my best and find someone else who I will be good enough for a chance to be with them. I don't think you'll ever give me that chance.